Todd Tagged Me.

What does this mean? It means I have to write 20 things about myself and if you read this, you must do it also on your blog/xanga type thing.

1. OK, secret's out, yes, I read Todd's Xanga.
2. My favourite colour is Orange.
3. If I have a wedgie, I find an excuse to walk into a deserted hallway (ie going to visit someone else's cube to drop off a job bag), so I can pick it.
4. I hate chain letters and SPAM (and yet, I'm participating in this foolishness).
5. I love Jesus and am trying to have Him be a bigger part in my life.
6. I can burp louder than all the guys I know.
7. I really enjoy doing laundry and baking.
8. I don't save enough of my money.
9. I'm scared of driving on highways.
10. I have minor insomnia.
11. I want to work out more/create more art that I care about.
12. The thought of hairy backs repulses me.
13. I think my boyfriend is so dreamy.
14. When I wiggle my toes or stretch my fingers, I'm amazed at how fast the signals from my brain travel to those body parts and cause them to react. Then I'm amazed at how crazy it must have been for God to create us, think all this out, and how it works so perfectly.
15. I talk to myself from time to time.
16. I'm having difficulty thinking of what to write now.
17. I still can't get the Photoshop droplet function to fully work on my computer (I can get it to convert my RGB JPGs into CMYK TIFs, but I can't get it to convert to CMYK JPGs).
18. I was thinking of some of the paintings in Italy on my way home. A bunch of them have fig leaves covering the people's privates, and it draws more attention to those areas when you cover it up. And then I was thinking how silly it was, esp on statues because there's no support for the leaf; it's just tacked on there. At least with the paintings, the leaves had branches. The leaves were meant to look very natural, and the paintings were meant to show man untainted, naked, and vulnerable. Yet, it's anything but--it's so unnatural to have those strategically placed fig leaves.
19. I don't think my life's problems are big compared to many other people's struggles.
20. I am thankful to have such a loving family and supportive, funny friends. I'm very fortunate to have all the things I have in my life.

it seems like i've been in such a daze. for a second, i couldn't remember what my user name was. how could i forget?! hehe. probably lack of sleep.

i've been discouraged lately b/c of the pressure of finding a job and some people telling me that i should just take this one job b/c i need the money and benefits. but honestly, i don't think it's right for me.

i am entirely grateful for those who have been praying for me or listening to me vent/sob. you guys have been simply wonderful.

i was talking to jamie today about my problem and she calmed me down w/ a verse:

if you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. -john 15:7

she's right though, have i been praying about it? not really, i spent most of my time worrying/listening to others. while listening is not bad, i neglected to listen to the one voice that could really help.

and well, last nite at wsg we were discussing trust. like how easily do you trust someone? do they start out at ground zero and earn your trust? or are they way up and have to do something to lose your trust? then we talked about how sometimes we feel like God needs to earn our trust; how we may humanize him to make him more palletable or tangible.

it was encouraging to read about jacob (we're studying genesis). the man was a deciever and heel grabber from the start, yet God knew all this and decided to use him regardless. and it's just very touching to know that God didn't break His promise or change His mind, and He never gave up on jacob. in the same way, He hasn't given up on me. when i'm not so lovely, when i'm in a pouty mood, He's still there. and for some reason, He still loves me. and He knows me (better than anyone esle) and whatever i may be going thru.

it's funny how i can just get so worked up over something which in the grand scheme of things isn't all that important. i am more than my job. =) it's always nice to get a kick and have things put in perspective. and just like i've relied on God in the past, i will rely on Him. it's not necessarily what He does in my life that is praise-worthy, but who God is. my trust and hope is in Him. =D